How long for this time? It’s my own fault really, I shouldn’t let her back every single time. But yet again it’s weekend and I’m sat on my bed alone. It’s Saturday morning and the kids are up stairs on their phones, Nintendo and PlayStation. They usually go to their dads after school on a Friday till I pick them up after school on Mondays.
I have got the kids because I felt bad, me and the abuser have just got back from a long weekend away (which turned into longer because my passport was thrown over the balcony of the 10th floor) so I decided, we decided to keep them this weekend. I started a knew job yesterday at the local supermarket, it was my first day, the abuser was having the kids as I didn’t finish till 8pm. I was nervous my last few jobs have been bad work which I love!!!!
I didn’t go. I couldn’t go. That’s another job iv had to let go. It’s November I have no job and I have Christmas coming. My make up won’t cover the black eyes, the gash on my nose, the cut on my lip, the bruises on my head. “Hi my names Bobbie, todays my first day, ignore my face and bruises on my body I was involved in a car accident”, I just carnt face lying to people anymore. Every job iv had I have had to leave because week in week out my face is bruised and cut.
So, anyway, she has gone again. Iv blocked her number, socials and email. I usually usually unblock her after a few hours but it’s day two now (that doesn’t sound a lot, but trust me it is). She came yesterday for the rest of her stuff, telling me how much of a slag I am, and how she was never good enough because she doesn’t have a dick. The best of it is, of course it is my fault (it always is). “Well you said you don’t want to be with me anyway so” yes I said it and I meant it, every single word.
She thinks it’s the same as every other time, where I leave it for a few days and she starts making her way back one way or another then BANG! She is back in the big bed, not this time, NOT THIS TIME! All I have to do now is wait…..
